Cursed or Blessed?

I can't decide of I am totally cursed right now or so blessed I can't even see it. My inner voice (which is very quite right now) tells me it's the latter. I know it enough I don't dare really complain--but life is crazy. Beyond our normal craziness--it all started about a month ago.

Over the past month--we have had our sewer line in our yard back up twice, dug up our sewer line to repair (along with 1/3 of the front yard), moved the AC unit which was over the sewer line while it was 90 degrees here (should have been 70), cleaned our entire storage room with bleach--twice (due to the water back up), made arrangements to have the wood floor that is now ruined (again, the water back up) replaced, finished the school fundraiser which took about 3 weeks longer than it should have--and to top it all off, last night on the way home from Cub Scouts we hit a deer!

To start off--we ara all fine and remarkably so is the car (mostly). It still needs work, but it's driveable and the kids are I are fine. I had seen a deer on the side of the road so was actually slowing down when two more came right in front of me. There was nowhere to swerve and nothing I could do. I couldn't stop, but we didn't hit too hard--although I confess I dont' know how the deer is. So we headed home, and the kids are obviously all talking about it--AVery goes, "Now guys, we can't be mad at mom, and she is not an animal killer, there was nothing she could do." Thanks Avery--just what you want your kids saying about you. I'm sure I should be more upset (I do feel bad about the deer), but I think I'm numb to the constant stream of expensive surprises being thrown our way.

but--back to the main point. Despite it all, in every incident that had seemed totally hard and overwhelming, I know we have been helped, watched over and blesssed. Each and every thing could have been so much worse and we are just fine. So, my feelings are mixed. When Reed called me this morning to check on me--we talked late last night when I told him about the deer--I think he was surprised I was so calm. I quickly discovered that it was a cover and my feelings are just a little buried. But I think it's largely because I feel quilty to feel sorry for myself when I can clearly see the Lord's hand in our lives.

Time for The Office and my zone out time! Coming tomorrow--a happy post!